Humbled

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Life is so amazing.  I really love it.  I really don't know what I would do without the gospel of Jesus Christ.  Even when people are so mean to me, I feel God near me, reminding me that I have worth and that amazing things are in my future, if I just have patience, patience to weed through the lousy, petulant creatures some are inclined to call "men." I don't hate men.  I'm just tired of allowing so much from them and everyone else to take from my identity and self-confidence. I feel that until I learn how to stop doing that, I need to stop dating, or trying to. Because until then, I will keep attracting the same person.  Committed to misunderstanding me, belittling and criticizing me, and withholding the truth.This has been a particularly eye-opening experience I must say. For the first time I felt that I was nothing but mature in my dealings with him (as opposed to my dealings of the past), and had nothing but good intentions. In a way I feel sad for him, and whatever he has been through that has led him to become so bitter and difficult and closed off.  My eyes have been opened to how blinding "love" can really be. I am just grateful I could find out now and not after I get married as was the case with my mom.