Yikes I have not been this busy or stressed since the mission. But it's good.  Life is good.  It's just flying by and that is what scares me.  Good things are happening but I am still a little afraid.  I desperately need to learn how to budget.  I need to remember to take my breaks at work and to go to sleep earlier.  Getting off at nine just leaves me so wired and wanting to stay up late to make up for the time I was at work.  Bad idea.  I really really am fine not dating right now.  It's kind of weird.  Like I go on dates and have fun and stuff, but I don't really care too much if they call me again.  But of course that will probably change.  I'm going to see Moonrise Kingdom tomorrow finally and I can't freaking wait. 

anxiety

I haven't had anxiety dreams in a while.  But this morning was a doozy.  I almost didn't wake up in time to go to the gym.  First I found out I was pregnant, heaven knows how... and my first thought in the dream is well I guess I am going to have to be better at taking my prenatal vitamins now... then I was at work and I messed something up and my boss was being a jerk and told me I wasn't going to get to keep my promotion because I was so stupid.  I almost started crying and kept telling her it was an accident and it would never happen again. (my boss isn't even a girl)  Ugh I'm glad neither of those things really happened. Also I realized a common factor in my relationships I think...I keep getting dumped because I seem to no longer be interested in them, or I am not 'reciprocating' or at least that's what they tell me.  Oh well.

i swear everyone i know is pregnant.  My good news? Job promotion plus eating healthy and working out is finally paying off. I could even go get back on the wii fit and it wouldn't yell at me for gaining weight because I have officially lost 20 pounds since they tested my thyroid in korea!  So even though my relationships keep getting shorter to the point where I'm not even going to get a second date anymore, at least I have a slammin' body now.