I wish my name was clementine

I am on a new quest.  Well it's not really new, but I am determined now.  A quest to learn to love myself, to find self-worth, to be my own best friend, and to overcome my PTSD and anxiety.  I've had a lot of humbling experiences lately and am realizing I need to learn how to forgive myself and stop beating myself up.  To say it is difficult would be a vast understatement.  I guess I just want to feel supported without getting scared and pushing it away.